Procrastination- The Silent Killer of My Dreams

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I used to think that procrastination was just a harmless habit that everyone dealt with from time to time. However, over the years, I came to the realization that this seemingly innocent behaviour was wreaking havoc on my life. Not only would I miss deadlines and rush to finish tasks at the last minute, I would lose so many opportunities, so much unfulfilled potential, and the constant stress of falling behind.

The Impact of Procrastination on My Daily Life

Everyday I wake up and write down a list of every task that needs to be done and its urgency. This makes me feel like half of the work is already done. However, somehow, the day slips away, and once again I am left with the same list, untouched. Procrastination has turned my mornings into an endless cycle of postponing tasks. I tell myself, “I`ll do this later,” but “later” never arrives, and as a result, the same old feelings of being overwhelmed and burned out kick in again.

In the afternoons, when putting my toddlers for a nap, I make a mental note to use this time productively and to tick off as many tasks as possible from my list. But in reality, I always end up napping with them, telling myself that napping will recharge my body and that later I will feel like a superwoman. The same routine happens in the evenings and nights when I use some kind of excuse to run away from what I should be doing, such as scrolling mindlessly on my phone or reading a book, pretending to do something good. 

The Emotional Toll of Procrastination

Beyond the practical issues, procrastination has taken over my mental health. The guilt of not getting things done was iterally destroying me, leading to anxiety that only makes it harder to start the next task. It`s a vicious cycle—one that has left me doubting myself and constantly stressed out. The more I procrastinate, the more I question my worth, my abilities, and my potential.

The Missed Opportunities

I can’t count the number of opportunities I’ve missed because I waited too long to act. Whether that`s starting my own business, wearing sunscreen everyday, taking makeup off before bed, or just making time for friends and family. Procrastination has cost me dearly. There are moments I will never get back in life, such as a youthful skin, and it hurts me to think about how different my life would have been if I had taken action when I should have.

Understanding the Root Causes

I spent a lot reflecting and pondering why I procrastinate, and I came to the conclusion that it often rises from a fear of failure mixed with being a perfectionist. The fear of not being able to complete a task or not being able to do it to the highest standards is paralyzing, so I put it off for as much as possible, until I`m feeling “ready.” But the truth is, I never feel ready until I leave my comfort zone and push myself to do what I need to do. The longer I wait, the more daunting a task becomes.

I also used procrastination as a way of dealing with unrealistic expectations and avoiding the situation completely to make myself feel better. This would make me procrastinate even more as it created a feeling of relief. I prioritized the pleasures of the present moment over my long-term goals. 

Steps I’m Taking to Overcome Procrastination

I have started taking small steps to finally get rid of procrastination from my life. I`m learning to set smaller and more realistic goals. To do a meaningful task that is also easily achievable. I am using this beautiful planner to organise my day and breakdown my tasks. I am slowly removing distractions and unnecessary things from my house that no longer serve me. This has freed my mind from the stress of having a cluttered home and left me with more time to focus on things that really matter to me. As a stay-at-home mum I have lost contact with the outside world, but I have created a plan to leave the house and attend an adult gathering at least once a week. Get to know more people and make new friends. It’s a slow process, but I’m beginning to see progress, and each small victory motivates me to keep going.

Procrastination has been a constant battle in my life, but I am determined not to let it define my future. I know I am not alone in this battle, and I hope that by sharing my story I have encouraged others to take action towards overcoming this great struggle. It`s never too late to start, and every little action brings us closer to the person we wanted to be and to the life we always wanted to have.

Have you struggled with procrastination? What steps are you taking to overcome it? Share your experiences in the comments below—I’d love to hear from you. Let’s support each other in taking action, one small step at a time.

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